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[27 Jan 2004|07:24pm]
yo add my new LJ. _newarrangement

snow. please snow. please? [27 Jan 2004|11:27am]
[ mood | cold ]

BBBrrrnnt ! i'm starting to hope that we don't have school tomorrow. I just need a break. atleast an early arrival. those are awesome.
We have a basketball game today. i didn't want to go at first, but now i do. Only because it's tuesday. So, i won't get home till like 6, eat, do some homework, and go to bed. it's going to be an early night. i'm beat. Last night, eric, steve, brian and i tried to come up with ideas, but it didn't work. We all just sat around watching Japanese cartoons and talking about really stupid things. Then Kirby ran up the stairs and I sat with him for like a half hour. Just laying on the rug.

I ate like a piggie last night. I had taco bell, cookies, english muffin, cranberry sauce, and a big pretzal. Im fat like whoa.

10 more days ! ! !! ! ! i'm excited !
dude, its like at the bottom of the mercury vile in here...


[26 Jan 2004|07:12pm]
[ mood | sleepy ]

i've been a bad bad girl. i've been careless with a delicate man and it's a sad sad world when a girl will break a boy just because she can don't you tell me to deny it i've done wrong and i want to suffer for my sins. I've come to you because i need guidance to be true and i just dont know where i can begin...

And I need to be redeemed To the one I've sinned against Because he's all I ever knew of love Heaven help me for the way I am Save me from these evil deeds
Before I get them done I know tomorrow brings the consequence At hand But I keep livin' this day like The next will never come


[25 Jan 2004|09:49pm]
tom is a pretty cool guy and thats all there is to it...

lack of a batter word? think not ! [25 Jan 2004|08:29pm]
[ mood | crappy ]

yeah. my family is garbage. just garbage. no better word, no worse word. garabge pretty much sums it up.


if it wasnt for the good souls life would not matter [25 Jan 2004|03:21pm]
[ mood | anxious ]

yeah so i had a good night. Gary came to get me and Jenn at like 9:30. Then we went to go pick up Jimmy and Matt. We went tp the movie, got there in perfect timing. just as we walked in, the movie started. so we got out of the move around 12 and went to PJ's. Mr. Ruddy was there lol. I played ms. Packman, but i got to where near his score. so gary,Matt, and Jimmy started to play pool. Then Evalino walked in. He said he gave Rodger 4,000 dollars and i was like "how" and he was like "stealing cars" lol. i thought that was funny. we left around 1:45 and got back to jenns around 2:00. Her little sister and her three friends were still up. so like while im at the pool hall, Thomas writes me a message and he's like im about to come there if i can get there. and im like you're not going to like the people im with. so then he says so we'll just sit in the car. so im suppose to leave my friends to go and sit in a car with him? WRONG! so he gets mad because i wont sit in the car with him. and hes like i am so sorry i ever tried to make an attempt to see you. ill never do it again. and he proceeds to tell me that he doesnt ever want to talk to me again and that i should take his number out of my phone and he will do the same. so im like laughing because this is number one reason why i would never date him. 1. too immature. he doesnt ever want to talk to me again because i wont sit in a car with him? ok. then so be it. i wont try and talk to you. but then he was like thats not what i want so i said we would talk today.


yeah so my mom is all fucked up again on drugs. big surprise ! nothing good ever lasts for more then about 12 hours.


do it or die ! [24 Jan 2004|12:30pm]
1. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
2. Am I lovable?
3. How long have you known me?
4. When and how did we first meet?
5. What was your first impression?
6. Do you still think that way about me now?
7. What do you think my weakness is?
8. Do you think I'll get married?
9. What makes me happy?
10. What makes me sad?
11. What reminds you of me?
12. If you could give me anything what would it be?
13. How well do you know me?
14. When's the last time you saw me?
15. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
16. Do you think I could kill someone?
17. Describe me in one word.
18. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger, weaker, or staying the same?
19. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?
20. Describe me in a few words.
21. What do you think about me?
23. Am I a mean person?
2 onthelips| kissies

[24 Jan 2004|11:13am]
[ mood | cheerful ]

yeah so ski trip = awsome. even though i didnt ski. lol. it was just a lot of fun.
so i made a deal with him last night. i hope i can keep my end. lol. and i hope he's not right about what he said. only time shall tell.


[22 Jan 2004|07:23pm]
ski tomorrow! woot wooot !
C bought me a sandwich today from subway with ONIONS! ewwies ! lol.
thomas got his braces. they dont look bad.
my biology midterm was mad easy !
lol. C let eric and me work "together" on the midterm lol.
i copied every answer from him. lol.
i got thingy magigers to do.
holla lata!
2 onthelips| kissies

[21 Jan 2004|07:28pm]
Drink with me my favorite friend
Drink with me untill the end
Never let me hear you sigh
Just keep drinkin' till you die

I cannot laugh without a sigh
I cannot speak without a lie
Endless moaning in the night
Warns of pain or just delight
Misuse myself in front of you
Just to get your pitty, too
Just to get your pitty true
I'd kill myself in front of you

He who comes in the hour of need
Has been to late, lack of speed
I never cared about these things
They're meaningless in all it's sence
I'm just happy I can say
Come what may at the end of the day

In the absence of love
I choose the hole
knowing it may
corrupt my soul
In the absence of love
I choose to be blind
knowing for sure
there's nothing to find
In the absence of love
I choose to be dead
on pedistal roses
resting my head

[21 Jan 2004|07:02pm]
false contritioN: will you be my punk rock princess?
punchmysister: haha sure
punchmysister: i always wanted to be a princess
false contritioN: nice !
false contritioN: lol. well you can be my princess
punchmysister: ok. when do i start?
false contritioN: now !
punchmysister: ok
punchmysister: when will i be queen mommy?!?!
false contritioN: lol hahaha.. soon enoughy son soon enough
punchmysister: ok let me know when
false contritioN: i will

hahahah! you gotta love that kid !

[21 Jan 2004|05:18pm]
**i wish u were a screen door so i could slam u all night long**

[21 Jan 2004|01:33pm]
Starting Time: 1:41 p.m
Name: Amber Lynn
Nicknames: there are a few...
Hometown: Elizabether, NJ
Grade: 10th
Birthday: 3.21.
School: RHS
Hair color: honey
Eyes: hazel
Height: 5'1ish
Siblings: Aj
Gender: boy
--------------HAVE YOU EVER.?-----------
Ever Been So Drunk You Blacked Out: somewhat
Missed School Because It was raining: no
Set Any Body Part On Fire For Amusement: not for amusement
Kept A Secret From Everyone: yes
Had An Imaginary Friend: no
Cried During A Flick: yupp
Ever Thought An Animated Character was hot: yes
Ever Prank Called Someone: yeah
Been On Stage: yup
Fought With Your Parents: yup
Wished Upon A Star: no
Laughed Until You Cried: yeah
Watched A Sunrise/Sunset: yup
Went To The Beach At Night: yes
Been Mean: yeah
Been Sarcastic: yes
Are You Happy: occasionally
Are You Talking To Someone Online: no I’m away
Shampoo: blackberry - herbal essence or pantein or tresume
Soap: dove
Colors: green yellow red orange black
Day/Night: night
Kind of music: whatever
Favorite soda: Dr. Pepper
Favorite drink: raspberry ice tea
Favorite car: there are a couple
Favorite Perfume or Cologne: sunflowers - Elizabeth Arden
Favorite Subject in School: History/English
Least Favorite Subject in School: biology
Favorite video game and board game: Madden football ‘04
Favorite Song: to many
Favorite Food- prime rib
Favorite Movies: the sandlot, a league of their own, who’s on first
Favorite Place: the beach
Favorite Holiday: new years
Lace Or Satin: dependsFavorite Town To Chill: old bridge
Favorite Cartoon Character: Stewy
----------DO YOU BELIEVE IN----------
God/Devil: sometimes
Love: yes
Love at first site: no
The Big Bang Theory: yes
Heaven/Hell: no hell. God forgives everyone. but i don't know about heaven either.
Who Named You: my father
when Was The Last Time You had sex ?: August
What Is Right Next To You: a table a door ? .
What Is You Computer Desk made Of: wood?
What Are The Last 4 Digits In You Phone #: 3341 or 7080
What Was The Last Thing You Ate: Tuna fish
Who Do You Wanna Spend The Rest Of Your Life With: i don't know
How Many Buddies Do You Have On Your List: 187
How's The Weather Right Now: cold
Have You Ever Smoked Pot: yes
How Do You Eat Oreos: with my mouth ..
If You Could Change Your Name: Emma, Jamie, Erin, or Dana
What will Your First Son's Name Be? i dont know
Daughter's Name Will Be: i dont know ..
Do You Like Scary Or Happy Movies: both at different times
Do You Like Talking To People On The phone or in Person: in person
Lust Or Love: love
Do You Consider Cheerleading A Sport: no.
Boxers or Briefs: boxers
Bacon Bits or Croutons: bacon bits
How Long Can You Hold Your Breath? the lenght of a 25 meter pool.
Disney World or Disney Land: ive only been to land
Do You Smoke? Occasionally
Do You Do Drugs? no
Have You Ever Been Skinny-Dipping: yes
Do You Make Fun of People: i try not to
Have You Ever Been Convicted of a Crime: no.
One Pillow or Two: 1but I need a lot to surround me
Pets: none ... yet
Piercing or Tattoos: my ears
What's Your Bedtime: when i'm tired
Adidas, Nike or Reebok: either or,. I have em’ all
Most Embarrasing Moment: i don't really get embarrased
Do you attend a church regularly?: yes
What do you look for in the opposite sex: a lot. I have standards
Can you swim? yeah
Do you like to swim? yup
Do you have an accent? NOOOO even though some people say i do
Do you have a job? no
Pro-life or Pro-choice? Pro-choice
Do you prefer pools or oceans?: either
Who's better boys or girls? boys.
Do you sing in the shower? sometimesWho's the best looking person: Bruce baby !
The best way to die? Either saving someone else’s life, or really sad and tragically like I got really mad, took over and like drove off a bridge...
Have you ever called a 900 number?: no
Gold or silver? either
Would you ever go bungie-jumping? yes
Do you enjoy reading? Yes
Which Winnie the Pooh character is your fav: eeyore
What was the last movie you saw? A walk to remember
Do you sleep with a stuffed animal? No
Do you think you're attractive? sometimes
What is your sign? aries
What movie do you really want to see? Identity
What are your personality traits? i don't know
What's your biggest fear? losing people i love
Who is the least attractive person you know? There are a couple
Optimist or Pessimist:? depends
Would you ever have cosmetic surgery? Yes
Do you like to dance? yeah
What do you think of people who drink? I don’t like drunk people ... at all
People who do drugs? I have mixed feelings
Better to cry or laugh? both
Do you think men and women can ever just be friends? yeah .. most of my friends are guys
What's your worst habit? There are A LOT
Ever been in love? Debatable...
Did you ever cry over someone of the opposite sex? yupp
Who in your life is your biggest role model? i have a few
Who was your first crush? I think it was Jason
Do you organize your CD's? Yes
Who makes fun of you the most?: mike, and C
How much time did you spend on this quiz: 22 minutes
What time is it now? 2:03

[20 Jan 2004|10:07pm]
[ mood | accomplished ]

yo yo yo. so back like three weeks ago, i asked Brett if him and kristen had sex everyday. we were talking about something, so it was relevant. So, Tj and i went to go pick up Bobby today, and Kristen and Brett were dropping off Sarah. so kristen smiles and she's like "amber, come here real quick." so i did. so, shes like did you ask brett if we had sex everyday and i was like oh yeah we were talking about it last week, he said no. so kristens like yeah we do. lol. we do it like all the time. before i go to work. and we started laughing. so then she was like i need your new cell phone number. so i gave it to her. we're gonna chill. right.
so, im MO mad at Thomas and Bret (little Bret) after school, he had a doctor apt. and i went straight down to the tech room. so i was hungry and i had a basketball game so i was going to get something and come back. so thomas and bret said they would come with me. so bret was like i need to stop at my house to get money. so we did, and we were there for like 15 minutes playing with his dog and stuff. so then i was like ok im leaving because i had promised C i would get him something. so there like "yeah i think im going to stay here in the warm" so i got mad and i was like "whatever" so i left and i walked ALL THE WAY TO TONY'S NY MYSELF IN THE COLD. but on the way back i was smart, i called pumpkin and he kept me company on the phone. we had an awsome conversation, then the end got bad like it always does. then he actually called me back after he got out of the doctor, and before the game started. it was perfect. i told him mr. van vliet was right in front of me, and i had just got down calling him sugar plum, and he thought i was talking to mr. van vliet, or both of them. he was like " i see how you are " so i started laughing and i was like you're rediculous. then i was like "alright i have to go to game is going to start" and he was like " oh just like that, ok, bye" so i was like I LOVE YOU ! and he was like i love you to. so it was actually a good ending to a good day.
my midterms were SO easy today. tomorrow i know they wont be. i have Italain, and Honors English with Palermo. the only thing im not comfortable with his the vocab in both classes. i suck.
so yeah its 10:19 p.m and i just woke up. so ill be awake ALL NIGHT LONG =/.
tomorrow will be excellent once it is over !
sorry i have to leave you Jenn =(.

1 onthelips| kissies

[18 Jan 2004|08:47pm]
I must be in love with you. because it's going to be so hard for me to tell you.
the words won't come out right. i cant even imagine saying them to you as i sit here right now. i get this feeling in my tummy =/. help !

[18 Jan 2004|08:41pm]
[ mood | anxious ]

yeah so jenn and i went joggin in the snow today. My grandparents are in Atlantic City so i made sketties and chicken ! yeah it was MO good.
yo, i just used that salt stuff on my face and it makes my face so smooth! im going to use it everynight now. i was so excited ! (i know im a loser...)
i never have anything but like 3 lines to write. im such a loser.
i with i had more to say. =/


Yellowcard = 19 days !!! [18 Jan 2004|01:22pm]
[ mood | cranky ]

EFFIN dannys mother let me drive her car last night...i did really well hehe. !
but then she was drunk and her, brianna, nick and dan started to fight. its a bad situation. i feel so bad for them. o well.
so i hate my grandparents. they disgust (?) me. make me sick.
jenn and i are going joggin today. yes, in the snow.
aren't we cool?


[17 Jan 2004|11:14am]
i told you i would get it back ! lol. haha. so last night i went ice skating. it sucked ! no one was there and i didnt even feel like skating. the people i went with were all taking about weddings and stuff. ug ! so i left early
i have a basketball game today. :/ i suppose it wont be that bad.
JENN AND I ARE GOING TO SEE YELLOWCARD ! yes i know what you're all thinking. "i've seen them like 12 times " who cares? all that matters is JENN AND I are going to see them !
so eat it !
have a nice day
1 onthelips| kissies

[14 Jan 2004|08:42pm]
Do u eat Lucky Charms?! cuz you look magically delicious

[14 Jan 2004|08:42pm]
I wrote your name in the sand, but the waves washed it away. I wrote your name in the sky, but the wind blew it away. So I wrote your name in my heart, and that's where it will stay

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